"My Nth Degree Confession"
For years I wanted to publish a Christian magazine. My magazine (wearing the same name as this website) had been ready for print for some time, however, it never came to fruition because of the publishing cost. But one December night in 2010 at 9:00 p.m., God spoke to me and provided instructions to develop a "web publication" of my magazine, "TheSingleBlessing.com".
Clearly, He instructed me to take the articles from the magazine and place them on the website. Not thinking that I was going against His will and instruction, I chose to utilize only a certain portion of my articles, because I wanted to salvage some for the publication of the magazine at a later time.
Unknowingly, I was disobedient and it was costly. However, the cost was never a realization to me because of the vast number of people from across the globe that visited the site. Honestly, I have been truly amazed by the numbers! I can only imagine the results, had I followed His instructions to the nth degree - just as Noah did.
He had also clearly told me that the site would be global and it immediately was and continues to be. Glory to your name Father!
Now, I can only apologize for not fully following God's instructions to the nth degree. In the realm of obedience, Noah is and has been one of my major guide posts. I thought that I was being much like him – carefully taking God's instructions and remaining within the guidelines that He provided for me. Thinking back to Noah, his ark worked just as God planned - perfectly, with no mishaps.
It was only today, as I shared with a Christian friend how the site was developed, that I realized my failure to fully follow God's instructions. As I explained the development to my friend, the words "take the articles from the magazine and place them on the website" burned my soul - - the realization was so heavy that I could no longer continue the conversation. I felt an urge to get things right and I went directly to work on correcting my mistake. My measurements were off, and my "boat" had to be restructured so that it could truly sail and not just be kept afloat.
As amazing as TheSingleBlessing.com has been – I am so excited to see what happens next. Father, I thank you for your "guidance and perfection" and allowing me to correct the error at hand.
Lesson learned: My mistake was that of selfishness - - I wanted to publish the magazine. But there was a serious conflict at hand, I couldn't operate in the will of God and abide by things of my own choosing. Unknowingly, I rode the fence – but now I no longer straddle. It feels good - - Confession is good for the soul.
My brothers and sisters, how often have you partially done what God expected of you? - - And yet, you expect full results from Him. Selah.
Lord, I ask that Your blessing remains with TheSingleBlessing.com and that you take the ministry to yet another level so that those in need of your comfort and protection will see and feel the realization of what hope in Christ really means. I pray Father, that you accept my confession of failure to follow instruction and turn it into a positive lesson for those in need of knowing how to realize the comfort of your protection. Grow me Father, guide me - - I know that you have forgiven me. With all my heart I love You and live to do what is right and good in your sight. Your provisions are astronomical – beyond my wildest dreams and I thank you Lord, thank you. Amen.
“Narrow is the way . . . .”